Our God is Awesome! He sets the provision before the need. He gives us the words when we haven’t read the script. He massages our hearts when they are weak.

I spent Sunday wandering around town, church, picnics and play dates praying. Seeking the Lord to wonder who will come along side our family as we enter a new area of parenting.  There have been many areas that we have acquired a ton of book knowledge and thought we were fully equipped about the subject – but until walking through them in practice did we see that all of the book knowledge in the world did not hold a candle to the experience of others, and the walking in it yourself.  Little by little throughout the day, people whom I seldom spoke to would come up to me and ask what was going on with my life.  In that crazy knowing way where the “same-o same-o” answer just wouldn’t cut it.  It started early in the morning with a sister friend asking and then suggesting that, as parents, we’d have to seek out a group of support. And then strangely in church, my regular “safe” friends did not attend.  And at the BBQ – which was for the youth group – I was surrounded by parents of grown teens.  What a resource. So , one by one, they sought me out.  Heard my needs. Sat and prayed. Offered their stories.  I saw the mischievous grin of the knowing parents. They know how my heart aches. But they know that this too will pass. Some could not contain the giggles of knowing what our family will be walking through in the next couple of years. They were all supportive, offering their favorite book titles and such. I know, remember, the hard year of kindergarten. How overwhelmed I felt. How I felt that if I didn’t get that year right, I’d mess up my son’s whole academic future. Now I look at the moms with 4-5 yr olds, the deer in the headlights look, the overwhelming need for information and books.  I giggle. Get the mischievous grin. Knowing that it is only the beginning. And with patience, grace, mercy and training, that those young years will be a wonderful discovery together. Alot of the harder to learn topics will not come until later – and then – the learning groove is set – and you don’t really see it as a struggle but an adventure to be won together.

So – Today – My perspective has swung around. I have a sense of the bigger picture. I have a peace that God has prepared this path and we will walk through it. My joy is restored, and my heart is full once again. My son has opened up to me in ways that he has not spoken to me in a couple of years. The questions that poured forth from him in the car rides the last 24 hours were intense. And I’m learning from my mom, that allowing them to ask the question, and give time, and listen their own answer, brings on another question.  So – I will be the prayer warrior for my little Squire.  I will be the patient listener. And when my little Page enters this area – I might even have my own mischievous grin. 🙂