Depending on Time

 

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My friend, very suddenly (when is it not?) went to be with the Lord this week. Passed on in the night, alone, in her sleep. Healthy – planning a vacation weekend to the coast, time to play at the lake with us. A seizure? Dr’s don’t know/haven’t shared yet.

I have met so many wonderful people. Being blessed with a nomad’s life – as a US Coast Guard Brat – moving every few years, to become a Coastie myself, to marrying a Coastie who was an Air Force Brat – to living in these economic times of moving where the work is. I learned from an early age to dig deep, reveal much, love quick, trust what people give, and not hold on to hurt. Life is too short. I’m reminded how short it is this morning. My desire was to ponder while floating around the Lake, yet, the Lord sent a thick enveloping fog over the water. I spent time on Facebook this morning, interacting with friends. I found a whole group of friends that got missed when I deleted my account last summer. Browsed some 20 year reunion photos from neighborhood friends back home a couple years behind me. One of my bestest friends and another Mentor Deep Heart friends share a birthday today.

This is the second time this year – that a friend booked a motel in town with the hopes of spending a day at the lake, and during the week of their arrival I received a phone call – that they would not be coming due to death. One was for a biological uncle – Uncle Frank that I had not met, and now for my girl friend from Bend.

And the pondering goes towards time. Depending on time to be there. When the kids are grown, when the car is fixed, when there’s an extra hundred dollars, when the laundry’s done, when the school year is planned, when the sun comes out when the rain goes away, when the skunk smell is out of the carpet (sorry, my friend has a horrific dog story to tell), hard things, like when the divorce gets final, when the hurt gets healed, when the legs heal, when the heart pumps normally, when we work on this character trait or that.

How many times have you said it or heard it this week alone?  When we ____ When it ____ then we will _____.  Will the time be there? What is the saying? We are only promised two things in this life – Death and Taxes?  Yet when the bill for either comes – we stare in disbelieve. Not yet. Not ready yet.

In going through old photos of friends – I found a few older ones of the boys, not too old, 2008 I think, but the changes. Wow. And I think, not only for the friends I am missing opportunities with – but for my own immediate family – Later – needs to be answered less, and Yes, Now! needs to be given more.

My dear readers, how I wish I could just host a BBQ on the dock this afternoon and invite you all over! Know that I cherish you!

Here are some old pictures from the 2008 disk that I imported last night –

Friends from Co-op in Bend.

Keepers of the Faith Mulders Troy, Karen, Ezra, Becca, Emma,

Nate in Sisters.

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Nate at 4th of July in Lincoln City this year.

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Jon in LaPine during hunting season – 2008

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Jon at Taft and Canyon River Park this summer.

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